lol i haven't blogged in a long time.

27th june 2008.
decided to be lazy to walk to the mrt and took a cab there....13 dollars...grhhh
then i received an sms from lorna that she couldn't come due to certain matters...sad wasn't i? =((
we ran through the piece once, and it was fine...i just played anyhow so that i could conserve energy.
after the run through, i went shopping for plasters because the plaster i had with me was wearing out...went to international plaza...and i wanted to eat chee cheong fun but they didn't have it! i was so sad....x(

went back to CCH and decided to slack. had some catered macdonalds lunch and interacted with members of the band...heh they are fun people xD
they asked me for my age...i said 1 years old...followed by 8 years old...and 110 years old...how pissed were they? xD asked for my name and i said RACHEL :D :D
i saw facepalms. =)
hanging out with people out of NUS high is kewl...I see life from a different perspective.

so...the wait for the performance began. thoughts just ran through my mind...i've put in so much effort for this...more than i've ever done before for a performance...come on, 4-7 hours of practice a day? it was crazy for me...and an extremely emotional journey. I gave myself so much stress...simply because i wanted to perform well. to me, this performance was like a deciding factor: if i do well enough, i'd continue going on. if not, i'm giving up; too tired of all these failures in music.

Toccata marziale was played. my heart was beating fast. there was no room for failure, to me.
I walked out on stage, probably not smiling. I meant business.
I played the first 7 chords...and was disappointed with the 8th. who cares xD
apparently in the tutti I was wiped out by the orchestra...but my role was to accompany the orchestra so it didnt bother me much...
the rest of the piece was okay...I made sure my melody soared while maintaining a soft left hand filled with NOTES. screw you rachmaninov. obviously i had slips here and there, and smoked some parts.
my most memorable smoke was composing 3 out of 4 bars because i forgot how those 4 bars were like except that i was accompanying the cellos. i resorted to playing random appeggios which are wrong anyway...and after the 4 bars i remembered the notes. it was SCARY. imagine that i forgot what was after that...1 month of toiling...gone? Thank God!
smoke number 2: last few bars. I couldn't play these few bars properly anyway...I only bothered practising them a few days before the concert...so it ended up rhythmically wrong xD but still the end was acceptable...so I have nothing much to say.

my favorite part of the performance? the development section. I knew i had to fight for the music to move. I fought and it turned out nice...in fact I've never played this emotionally on stage before. so I guess it was memorable for me...

overall? I rate this performance a B-.
I passed, finally.

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