often, I decide to do something and i go on doing that thing, and unknowingLy i didn't expect things tO turn out other than i expected.

i Very much want to just say perhaps what should be the right thing for me to say; but i guess i'm too timid to do so and I fEar what is to come.

after all, no one's gonna beLieve what i say; it would perhaps suffice if i just believe in myself, that i won't lie tO myself.

papeR can't hold fire; the irony is that No one can see that fire that i am trying to hold; perhaps, the fire is only reAl to me and not to others. so be it.